Soft words, but as loud as thunder.
My timing is wrong again.
Opportunities!
When will I learn?

Now!
Now is the time!
I am wasting too much time.

插肩的诱惑，昔日的垂念，机失的漫寒。

Today, I became a house-owner, finally upgrading to a larger flat.

It feels kind of weird initially I guessed, but I think I’ll get used to it. The idea is that it is no longer a case of me staying with my mum, but my mum staying with me. Although it is just an adjustment of status, but the sense of responsibility is mounting. I think I cannot ignore the fact that my mum will age eventually. I have to step up and take more charge of my household.

The memory was still vivid. There was a time when my family does not even have a roof over our head. We had to have relatives taking us in. honestly, during those times, I really felt second class. A tiny room for the whole family and a constant awareness that even at home, we are not, and have to be careful about damaging furniture, using too much electricity and water, etc. It was truly uncomfortable.

I am not ungrateful. At least we are provided with a roof over our heads. I have decent relatives. But they are relative. It felt different. A home is usually shared with families, not relatives. Although for many, the distinction is not clear. It is mainly psychological I guessed.

My mum had only up to a secondary education. She had 3 school-going children then. It was a tough time. She survived and won brilliantly.

But today, only in my mid-twenties, I own my own flat. So do my elder brother. All 3 siblings have our own vehicle to travel all around Singapore. Yes! I am very proud of what we had achieved. I will not take it for granted.

We had definitely come a long way. It is the good fortunate accumulated through years of dedicated efforts towards kosen-rufu – The movement of Soka Gakkai, which is an organization dedicated to the noble ideals of Peace, Culture and Education. Championing the highest ideals of goodness will never fail to eradicate negative karma. Benefits will definitely be showered upon the sincere votaries of the Wonderful Law of Life. I will always cherish this thought.

It had been a week of music. I first met Mr Yokano when he came to Singapore to perform for the first time in 2003. I was totally awe-struck by his optimism and hopeful outlook towards life despite being blind. Of the basic five senses of the human being, I would rate the loss of sight as the one that would cause the most inconvenience. Hence, I truly admire his courage and determination to pursue his dreams regardless of his handicap.

Cherishing Dreams! That is one of the treasures of the youth heart. I must never forget that!

Read more about Mr Yokano here.

On his current visit, I would rate his playing of the Song of Human Revolution as the highlight. How I missed that song. It never fails to stir deep emotions within me.

I will take my stand.
You will take your stand.
Each in our own ways for Kosen-rufu!
Stand courageously alone in the vanguard!
Hold high the flag of justice and courage.
Let us open the way for a new civilization to
blossom.

I will forge ahead.
You will forge ahead.
We march through the blizzard's fury!
We stand undaunted by the storm!
We must be true Bodhisattvas of the Earth.
We have a mission to fulfill in this world.

I will look ahead.
You will look ahead.
Keeping the wonderful rainbow in sight!
Watch the new century dawns with awesome brilliance!
Let the light of human revolution shine.
Let my light of human revolution shine.

I was brutally reminded once again that I am no longer a teenager. Barely 15 minutes of kicking a ball around with my students and I twisted my knee. I had better respect the importance of doing proper warm-up exercises from now on.

:-(

My nose is running. Third time in 2 months. I think this time, Sir Fever visited as well. I am beginning to understand why many had the phobia with regards to the teaching profession: it is toils on your health. I am usually healthier.

LOTS OF MARKING TO DO. Sigh~ and my red pen chose the perfect moment to run out of ink. Mayhap, a call for me to take my rest.

Feel like screaming. But then again, the sore in my throat denies me.

But I am in the midst of a campaign. I cannot rest for too long. Assuming the identity of a Bodhisattva of the Earth, I demand that the antibodies in my body cleanse it of all viruses. I will give them six hours! I got a battle waiting for me to fight in.

Shutting my brain for six hours from now... I will be back fighting fit!

Some humble verses inspired by photos taken by Daisaku Ikeda whom I regard as my mentor in life.

Youth! Climb! Ever Higher For is it not the right of the young To cherish lofty dreams? ~ Ra (On the Passion of Youth)

To some, I am the shadow But truly, I am the Sun The light that will illuminate the entire world Many may not understand me And you may even be satisfied with just the light From the reflections of the water But I will continue to provide my light And dispel every dark cloud in your sight ~ Ra (On his conviction in Nichiren Buddhism)

Do you see the farmers or the long grass they harvest? I see both. For they are one and the same The world of nature, is also the world of mankind. They will thrive as mankind advance Or bleed if humanity fails. ~ Ra (On the Oneness of Man and Environment)

这种感觉又来了。真的体会到，思念真的像喝了杯非常冰冷的水，让水漫漫的化成热泪。我也当真喝了好多水。

泪永远是咸的。心麻了。也不在乎酸甜苦辣，只在乎时间的流逝。等。

也许是一种傲慢吧，总认为自己还是最适合她的。也可能只是一种为了自身和她的幸福而奋斗的心灵，不弃不悔。

也有自责吧。

可能真的是傻瓜的天真，心都翻出来了。

难道交了心就真的值得吗？

累了吗？年轻到哪了？寻。在寻吧！

Meng signed the form to receive Omamori Gohonzon 3 hours ago. YIPPEE!!!

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